Just got home from a Nonviolent Communication practice group meeting, where I found being prompted with the stem "I love it when ..." to be a helpful way of getting connected to a feeling of having my nervous system say ahhh, to taking a deep breath, and to thinking about what I want.
Celebrating life
Seeing the beauty in all of life
That's what I was able to come away with when I left the practice group.
I want this.
Tuesday, September 20, 2016
Friday, September 16, 2016
Positive reinforcement
Seems like just like not getting hooked by negative stuff and letting anxiety run the show with negative stuff, similarly, there's also the possibility of getting hooked by positive stuff.
I guess it's about what keeps me in the game vs. what takes me out of the game. Maybe that's the answer I have to this question.
I guess the other answer I have to this question is that if the positive thing involves avoiding/escaping/getting rid of anxiety, then that'll keep me stuck with making my bully stronger and will tend to reinforce that anxiety is something that I can't handle...and such...
I guess it's about what keeps me in the game vs. what takes me out of the game. Maybe that's the answer I have to this question.
I guess the other answer I have to this question is that if the positive thing involves avoiding/escaping/getting rid of anxiety, then that'll keep me stuck with making my bully stronger and will tend to reinforce that anxiety is something that I can't handle...and such...
Thursday, September 15, 2016
Fall in love
Fall in love with living
Fall in love with life
Fall in love with being with myself
Fall in love with uncertainty
Fall in love with the messy real-ness of life and let go of the unattainable Pema Chodron's hell way of going about trying to get more comfortable that only leads me to be constantly futzing with things to getting them the way I think I want them
Relax into stillness
Be curious about what pulls you out of stillness
Fall in love with life
Fall in love with being with myself
Fall in love with uncertainty
Fall in love with the messy real-ness of life and let go of the unattainable Pema Chodron's hell way of going about trying to get more comfortable that only leads me to be constantly futzing with things to getting them the way I think I want them
Relax into stillness
Be curious about what pulls you out of stillness
Sunday, August 28, 2016
“Whatever you do will be insignificant, but it is very important that you do it.” ― Mahatma Gandhi
One thing this quote definitely speaks to for me is connecting with others in writing. Wanting what I say to be more significant gets in the way of getting it carried out. Getting it carried out needs to be more important!!!
Another thing this quote speaks to is Melisa saying not to get caught up in which exposures to do. I'm getting far too hampered by wanting the ones I do to be the "right" ones. Instead, it would behoove me to close my eyes and jump, because it is very important that I do them. Pick one, any one. Be with the uncertainty, and do something, anything. Be process-oriented and not outcome-oriented. Outcome-oriented me was saying that leaving this post opened up in one of my browser windows might mean that it comes across my purview at just the "right" moment in a way that would be more significant than if I closed the browser window. Process-oriented me wants to keep moving and doing.
Another thing this quote speaks to is Melisa saying not to get caught up in which exposures to do. I'm getting far too hampered by wanting the ones I do to be the "right" ones. Instead, it would behoove me to close my eyes and jump, because it is very important that I do them. Pick one, any one. Be with the uncertainty, and do something, anything. Be process-oriented and not outcome-oriented. Outcome-oriented me was saying that leaving this post opened up in one of my browser windows might mean that it comes across my purview at just the "right" moment in a way that would be more significant than if I closed the browser window. Process-oriented me wants to keep moving and doing.
Tuesday, August 23, 2016
Smallness and now
Stefanie suggested grounding myself with the words, smallness and now.
what little things can I do bit by bit
how can I experience this a little bit differently in a more desirable way
what's Leeann's answer to that
what little things can I do bit by bit
how can I experience this a little bit differently in a more desirable way
what's Leeann's answer to that
Mindfulness where just watching bringing myself to just watching without trying to control
Mindfully watch anxiety
without doing anything
can get bigger
can get smaller
Leeann's answer
My pharmacist at Stadium Pharmacy, Xavier Tato, has been so patient and helpful to me.
One thing that I'm finding really helpful today is something Xavier said to me when I was struggling with indecision (as I often have been while talking to Xavier) . He said to cast it as "What's Leeann's answer?" Base it on what feels right right now.
塞翁失馬 (Sai weng shi ma) reminds me that we can't know whether we will like the outcomes that seem like they are highly correlated with what I've chosen. So, be process-oriented instead of outcome-oriented, and perhaps this reminder will help me go with what feels like Leeann's answer in each moment. Go with what feels right to Leeann, right now.
One thing that I'm finding really helpful today is something Xavier said to me when I was struggling with indecision (as I often have been while talking to Xavier) . He said to cast it as "What's Leeann's answer?" Base it on what feels right right now.
塞翁失馬 (Sai weng shi ma) reminds me that we can't know whether we will like the outcomes that seem like they are highly correlated with what I've chosen. So, be process-oriented instead of outcome-oriented, and perhaps this reminder will help me go with what feels like Leeann's answer in each moment. Go with what feels right to Leeann, right now.
Where is Leeann in all this? That's a question along similar lines that was posed to me by my therapist at the Houston OCD Program. If I'm letting my "robot program" run my life, then there is no Leeann in all this.
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